Find out who you are, and own that mofo.

I try and live in the present moment and instead of challenging my thoughts, I have started to address them. I sit with myself and ask questions like – What actually is bothering me and if there is anything that I can actually do about it or not and most importantly, I try not to lie to myself like I used to before.
The good part here is that now even in moments where my anxiety is at its peak I am able to ground myself better, I keep telling myself over and over again that this feeling is not me, this feeling is anxiety and that it’s lying to me. It takes me somewhere from a couple of minutes to a couple of hours but now I am able to snap back to reality in a much better way than I used to before.
I try to learn and grow every day, and the more I question myself the more clear it becomes that whatever problems I have had all my life were 80% due to my overly curious mind. Honestly, our minds can be our best friend or our worst enemy depending upon our inclinations.

In my case, my emotional attachments sometimes take over my logical brain and make me miserable along with others around me. I have started to realize that to become saner I need to learn a bit of healthy detachment and trust me this is going to be the most difficult task of my life as I am an empath who feels every emotion very deeply.

In simpler terms, I would say that the less we care, the happier we’ll be and the sooner we start believing this the better.

The problem isn’t what someone tells me, or how somebody perceives me the problem is that I take it very personally even though it’s not meant to be. I mean I can’t go around dissing people because they choose to have a different opinion or a different way of thinking all I can do is choose to either let them go or accept them for who they are. People can have different outlooks and opinions and still be friends, all we need to do is accept them for who they are and not for who we imagined them to be. After all, nobody is responsible for the stories we tell ourselves right?

We have to understand that every human has different expectations from their lives and honestly even we haven’t really figured out ours, everything will make sense one day but till then we need to have some patience and simply work towards getting all that we desire from our lives.

We are in this together and it’s okay to be overwhelmed or anxious till the time we believe that everything will better with time and that these cloud of thoughts that we have at all times would act like armour one day and help us figure out the true purpose of our lives no matter how much nihilistic we feel at the moment we need to believe that we are capable of doing great things. This darkness will lead me to the light that I have been looking for, we humans are mysterious creatures and more so are our minds.

Love,
E